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Michael Fassbender, whose atmospheric piece, Tisiphone,
is featured below, lives in the Chicago-area. I first met Michael
in college, where we were history aficianados together, and I first
learned of his creative gifts when poems of ours were both chosen for
the first issue of the College's literary magazine. But it would be a
long time before we became friends.
Years later, after Chicago Haunts was
first published, I received an email from Michael, discussing the
Chicago-based legend of Candyman. I instantly recognized the
name--and was intrigued by the points he made--, and a precious
friendship was born.
That first
year, we traveled together to the then-abandoned Ovaltine factory in
Villa Park, Illinois, and re-explored the founders' cemetery on the
grounds of our alma mater. That year, Michael introduced me to
Fr. Julian von Duerbeck, one of the monks at St. Procopius Abbey, a
noted religious historian and a kind, wise and wonderful soul.
I don't see
Michael--or Fr. Julian--much these days, but I think about them a lot.
About once a year, Michael and my husband and I get together to
see a movie--always, always of the supernatural bent--and inevitably
sit in the parking lot for hours discussing it before parting ways.
About once a year, if I'm lucky, Michael sends me one of his
stories to read and critique.
I'm thrilled when I see his
manuscripts in the mail.
And so I received Tisiphone
just before Halloween this year, in a Manila envelope addressed by
hand. It had come to my mother's house--Michael knew I had moved
but didn't know where--and Mom gave it to me as I tore out the door to
catch my Amtrak train to Springfield.
I read the
manuscript that evening, as the sun set over the freezing prairie
outside the windows, and I was utterly taken in.
Poe fans will
appreciate Michael's respectful. affecting pastiche, and non-fans will
be won over by Michael's ability to unsuspectingly draw readers into a
narrator's world, for better or worse.
I hope you enjoy Tisiphone. Michael would love your feedback on it, so please send your commentary to him in care of info@hauntingchicago.com
I'll post a printable version of the story later this week.
Tisiphone
by Michael Fassbender © 2005
Neige, neige
Du Ohnegleiche,
Du Strahlenreiche,
Dein Antlitz gnädig meinem Glück!
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
Faust, zweiter Teil, 5. Akt
Melancholy has long dwelt within our house, but not from the very
beginning. Before it had passed into my possession, it was my
father’s, and before him, his. Generations were born here,
lived, and died in due course, and joy and grief alternated their
hegemony as they do in every healthy house. So was it for my
family, and though my parents died early in my adulthood, and I grieved
as truly as any good son, it brought no taint to my soul nor its
lodging. I regretted that they could not meet my lovely wife,
Tisiphone, let alone our dear son, but thus had Fate decreed, and we
accepted this judgment in good cheer.
My first years as master of the estate were solitary ones, and my
expansive home seemed full of empty spaces yearning earnestly to be
filled, but therein lay no undue sorrow. The deaths of my parents
had forced me to turn a page, and before me was a blank leaf upon which
I could scribe my own chapter in the family’s tale. And
then I met Tisiphone, and at once I began to write my entry.
Following a courtship just long enough to be respectable, she consented
to be my wife and took residence as the lady of the estate.
That Tisiphone was beautiful was known to all.
Her jetty hair hung in wispy tresses to gather upon her delicate
shoulders. She was tall -- nearly as tall as I -- and slender,
with a graceful bearing that might have marked her for a career on the
stage, had she been born to humbler folk than her own stately
family. Against the backdrop of her raven locks stood faultless
skin with the hue and smoothness of porcelain, and the swanlike grace
of her neck was exaggerated by the shadows that played beneath the
cover of her ebon hair. The pallid canvas of her face, bordered
by its frame, threw into sharp relief the full and florid
curvature of her lips, and the piercing blue of her playful eyes.
Tisiphone was an exquisite beauty, but she was moreover a loving wife
and devoted partner. Her eye was tasteful, and her soul was a
kindly one. She it was who made my house a home again, and she
filled it with an attention to beauty that made of that ancient
domicile a work of art in its own right. After three years, she
made her greatest contribution of all in the birth of our only son,
whom I cannot bear to name here.
Four years we had in his delightful company, a
paltry sum of time even by the fleeting standards of humanity. A
crippling illness robbed that lively child of his vitality for eight
months before it stripped him of his life, and somewhere in that epoch
of worry and despair came Melancholy to our home, a lodger at first who
showed increasingly no intention of departing.
Instead it was our son who departed, and Melancholy claimed possession of our house.
Neither Tisiphone nor I had strength left with which
to contest the claim. Our grief consumed the full extent of every
day, and sleep itself offered us no succor. The departure of
Tisiphone’s much-loved playfulness was mirrored by the decline
reflected in her lovely face. Her lips drew tighter, their hue
receding to the faintest hint of pink, and her eyes no longer danced,
assuming a dullness that brimmed over with the bitter brine of her
sorrow. Certainly, they had blinded themselves to beauty, where
before they were its most devoted and perceptive adherent, and our once
magnificent and colorful home sank to the gray depths that threatened
to drown us all.
I know not when the wasting sickness took hold in her bosom, but she
said several times that it happened when she cradled our son’s
cold head there. It matters little whether she spoke truly, for
it was near enough, and soon the decline of her spirit mirrored itself
in the clay that housed it. I could not guess at how long she
could remain in our world, for the grip of consumption is a slowly
strangling one, but it was clear to me that the sands could not run
through the hourglass quickly enough for her satisfaction. Daily
she bade me pray with her for her release, and I did so, but deep
within, I could not accept that solace would come only in the
grave. Though I knew it was hardly possible, I yearned for a
recovery of health and hope that would allow us to build again the
happiness we had known before.
While I dared to hope, if only in the feeblest
manner, Tisiphone granted not herself even so much. A mere two
years after the passing of our son, though seemingly a yawning gulf of
time in our estimation, Tisiphone chose to make an end of her wretched
existence. I can say with an honest heart that I did not discern
the signs of that conviction, although with the benefit of hindsight
they point out clearly the path of her dissolution.
At
the time of her death, she remained capable of independent action,
though the disease clung with a smothering embrace about her. Her
needless hours abed were conditioned more by the ailment of her heart
than by that of her dying lungs.
Happily then did I draw her a bath when she so bade
me that fateful morning. I dared hope that the latest fever had
abated, and she meant to rise to meet the new day. Life could
return but by tiny increments, and I earnestly wished that I was
witnessing such a one. I drew that bath, and then betook myself
to my study, where I devoted myself to some long-neglected
business.
An hour had passed before her failure to emerge had
caught my mislaid attention. Thinking, perhaps, that she had
fallen asleep and might be in danger of drowning, I knocked loudly upon
her door, hoping to rouse her where the gradual chilling of the water
had not. Met with no response, I tried the door, but found it
latched from within. Feeling now the presentiment of what I would
find beyond, I forced the door, only to see that my beloved was beyond
salvation. Though she had been named in a Grecian manner, and had
once shared their delight in all the world, she had spent her final
years in the somber temper of the antique Roman, and made her departure
from the world in their fashion. The water with which I had
filled the tub was now stained with the red pigmentation that should
have colored her lips; they, in their turn, were nearer in shade to the
glassy eyes that stared, uncomprehending, into my own frantic gaze.
Mighty Melancholy had claimed dominion over our
house, and when it demanded sacrifice, my dearest Tisiphone had offered
herself its victim. No course of action remained to me, and so
for a lengthy period, perhaps an hour, perhaps more, I ventured none,
but knelt there beside the bath, her cold head against my agonized
chest. Several times I mused on how she had held our boy in like
fashion, and thought of the dismal consequence that she had perceived
in that action. I cared not; gladly would I have foreseen my own
departure from this world, for all the good that I saw in my
future. But oh! that she bore it not, and flung herself into the
yawning gulf before her time! This alone could I not comprehend,
nor could I dream of emulating it.
When at last sense stirred again in my breast, I
quit that lamentable chamber and hastened from the house, to return
with such aid as I might rouse. Goodly Doctor Cathcart rose at
once to my summons, though he was more than eighty. Father
Simmons recoiled in horror upon my words, but rapidly gave in to my
frenzied efforts at pursuasion. The three of us proceeded to my
home in a state of disconsolate gloom, impermeable in the face of that
bright summer afternoon.
Crossing again the threshold of my estate, my gaze
beset by the gravest shadows of all, the echoes of joy lost and
irretrievable, I found again my sense of the passage of time twisted
beyond recognition, as it has remained ever since. Hours might
seem as days, but then, with a suddenness beyond my imagining, a week
or a month would pass and I could not possibly account for it. So
it was as we three entered the stately sepulchre. I guided my
companions to my wife’s side with the precision and the sentience
of a clockwork automaton; I remember nothing of that journey. I
remember only the sight of the good doctor as he rose from my
wife’s side and proclaimed her dead, and that sadly by her own
hand. Father Simmons struggled in vain to form words of
consolation, but it was as well, for none could have taken hold.
We stood in silence, until I could no more bear the
standing, and sank to my knees at my wife’s side. I know
not how long I there remained, but it seems that it was I who broke the
silence when I asked after my next step. Dr. Cathcart pledged
that he would compose a certificate of death, and then the matter would
pass from worldly hands entirely, unless she had deposited an unknown
testament with a law firm in town; in which case the matter would come
to light soon enough.
Then I turned to Father Simmons, who naturally would
have been the next to speak; yet he did not, nor would he meet my
questing gaze. I pressed him -- I charged him on his duty to his
flock -- to speak, and at last he made answer of a sort in timid
tones. With an avuncular hand upon my shoulder, he promised to
reimburse me for the unused gravesite.
Little enough had I comprehended that day; only the
very thing from which I would happily have hid, the certainty of a
future without Tisiphone, was indelibly inscribed upon my mind. I
stared at him a short while, or perhaps it was significantly
longer. In any case, my gaze did not leave him until he made
answer, which he did in defensive tones, saying that a self-murderer
could not be laid to rest on holy ground. Suicide is the gravest
of sins, he told me, and her soul was already in the clutches of the
Fiend. I could dispose of her remains as I saw fit, but she would
not answer the Trump in the midst of the faithfully departed.
The strain of that unhappy day then proved too much
for me, and I lashed out in unseemly fashion. I bade Father
Simmons leave at once, saying that he was no more welcome in my house
than I would feel in his. He could have his damned churchyard
earth; I would prepare a suitable tomb on my own estate, and when it
was complete, I would send a man to collect the remains of my son for
re-interment. Then he might have all three plots available for
some worthier patrons.
I clad Tisiphone’s body in the mourning dress
she wore for our son’s funeral. She had been more haggard
at her death even than that somber occasion, and I had no difficulty in
vesting her corpse. I laid her out upon a table in the parlor,
taking care that this most haphazard bier be tastefully
appointed. Even as I accomplished this, my mind raced ahead
towards the planning of her more permanent entombment. There
would be neither wake nor funeral, at least not for the attendance of
outsiders. The community had abandoned her for her crime, one for
which she had already paid sufficiently; and the community would then
have no opportunity to bid her farewell. That right was held by
me alone. She
would remain in the parlor, in this my private wake, until the place
for her interment was ready. It was clear that she must be laid
to rest on my own property, and it was with ease that I concluded it
must be in the house itself. With the remains of my wife and
child inside the home, at least the shade of my family would live
on. Small comforts were all for which I could hope.
No more would I entertain; this much was
clear. As such, the grand dining room no longer held any meaning
for me in its present form. Surely, however, it was large enough
to do justice to the memory of Tisiphone, of our son, of the family we
had once been. Moreover, there was no basement beneath the main
floor, and the solid earth could support the marble monumentation that
my mind conceived. At once I had the heavy oaken table, the
elegant chairs, the crystal chandelier, and all other accoutrements of
the dining party removed, sold to finance more enduring decor for the
welcoming of more permanent guests.
Three marble sarcophagi I commissioned: one for
Tisiphone, a smaller one for our son, and one that would in time
accomodate my own mortal remains. Tisiphone’s sarcophagus
and mine would lie side by side, while that of our son, whose soul had
preceded both of ours into the hereafter, would lie perpendicular to
both, resting above our heads. At Tisiphone’s feet would
stand a large onyx urn, to be filled with craftily forged silken
facsimiles of flowers. Roses there would be, and lilies, but one
modification I demanded: these floral offerings must undeviatingly be
made of black silk. Beauty there would be, but not cheer, for all
joy had abandoned our house. Four ebon stands to support black
candles would mark the four corners suggested by the arrangement of
sarcophagi. Statuary must also be commissioned, to commemorate
the deceased and offer such little comfort as they might, but here I
hesitated. The traditional motifs of our funerary practice seemed
ill-suited to Tisiphone and her circumstances. If, after all, she
were irrevocably damned, a dweller in ineffable darkness cut off
eternally from the Source of all life, then what comfort might be found
in the placement of an angel over her tomb? It would seem,
instead, a mockery of her fate, some guardian charged with warding off
her memory.
If I would offer Tisiphone some comfort, if indeed
it were in my power to do so, I must accomplish it with symbols more
apposite to her present circumstances and station. Not a glorious
angel would weep over her charnel clay, but instead a disconsolate
demon. Winged skulls and enshrouded corpses would populate the
reliefs of her sarcophagus, where even the Archfiend himself might shed
a tear at the terrible fall of such a glorious creature. Both
entrances to the shrine I would erect in her memory would be guarded by
the images of shrouded spectres, proclaiming at their bases the Silence
demanded in such a holy place. And the heartbreaking portrait of
my dear Tisiphone, painted in those merry days before sorrow claimed
this house for its own, would hang, wreathed in black silk, upon the
long wall beside its model’s unyielding bed.
Such were the remembrances I had envisioned, and I
placed a significant portion of my family’s fortune towards their
realization. The cost was to me beneath consideration; this was
the true fortune of my family -- should not its mere money follow the
same path? First of all must come Tisiphone’s sarcophagus,
for the parlor would not do for long, and I would not entrust her to
common earth for such a short span. Then, when she was at rest in
her final abode, that of our son would be introduced, and his remains
would be summoned to join her. Last of all came my own future
bed; I feared as much as believed that I would have more time than
necessary to see my preparations completed. The statuary was to
be provided by other sculptors, and of course such supplies as the
counterfeit flowers came from still other sources. The delivery
of my own sarcophagus would mark the completion of the chamber, which
then would await nothing but my entombment. The house would then
be held in trust in perpetuity, and only such human contact as would be
necessary to maintain the condition of our manorial tomb would be
permitted.
Though I would gladly have paid five times the
stated price to take delivery of the first sarcophagus within a week,
the sculptor assured me that the requested level of detail necessitated
a far longer period of time to carve. Knowing that its delivery
would immediately be followed by its occupation by the dead, no
financial inducement could persuade him to send the roughly hewn
sarcophagus to my house and then finish it at leisure in situ.
This being the case, a temporary shelter for my wife’s body
became necessary, for it would not do to allow it to fall into
corruption in plain sight and open air. Thus, on the second day
of the wake which I alone attended, I commissioned a coffin to be made,
and to be delivered to my home no later than the following morning.
The undertaker was true to his pledge, and two
hardened workmen of his shop brought the coffin to my home before ten
o’clock the next day. Accustomed as they were to such work,
they lifted Tisiphone’s body from the table on which it rested
and placed it inside the coffin. They did not seal the coffin,
knowing I was not yet ready for such finality, but urged me to close it
by the end of the day, for noxious vapours that attend the dead do no
good to the living, and to keep it closed until I was ready to inter it
in its house of stone.
Much as I had hated to hear it, upon reflection I
concluded that it was sound advice, and so I remained with her body
until eight in the evening, at which time I bade her farewell and
placed the lid upon the casket. Though I had done nothing all
day, I felt profoundly exhausted, and retired even before the sun had
set.
I slept deeply and long, experiencing perhaps my
first healthy rest since Tisiphone had died. Some comfort,
perhaps, may have come from the impression that she, too, was at such
rest as she could hope to enjoy. This house remained hers, as
well, and would be so forevermore. This notion affected me
deeply, if my dreams be any measure of its impact. No details
survived my first waking, but my initial impression as I greeted the
day was the heartfelt expectation that I might see Tisiphone leaning
into the room to bid me good morning. Whatever the matter may
have been, it involved the house and my dear departed wife, dwelling
therein.
The thought provided some comfort, and inspired me
to begin my day with a tradition that I have maintained ever
since. After making my ablutions and dressing appropriately, I
proceeded at once to the parlor, where I gently caressed her coffin lid
and wished her well this day. Some might protest that this were
an unhealthy conceit, an attempt to dodge the reality of my loss, but
few such curmudgeons had the experience of losing a beloved
spouse. For me, it was a way to make it through my day, and
wherein is that unhealthy? I should protest that it was a sound
and sensible measure.
My peace made with the stark realities of day, I was
then able to attend to my affairs until evening loomed, and I returned
eagerly to bed, wherein I could feel in dream the nearness, indeed the
all-encompassing pervasiveness, of Tisiphone. Never in these
nightly visions did I see her clearly, but ever did I perceive various
tokens of her presence. In such dreams as I remembered more
clearly, I saw her shadow upon a wall, or heard her voice echoing
through the hall behind me. A door that I knew to have closed
yawned open before me later, or peering into my mirror for my morning
shave, I espied a darkly clad woman passing behind me. Many a
time in such dreams did I wander into the parlor, and gazed upon the
lamentable shape of the coffin, that undeniable symbol of the finality
of death. At such times a hateful compulsion descended upon me,
to prise open the lid and gaze again upon the mouldering remains that
lay within. Ever did I succeed in overpowering such an impulse,
wishing to cling to the memory of the freshly cut rose, until the
sarcophagus was ready and I must face the horror of what she had become.
So passed my days without variation, until at last
Tisiphone’s sarcophagus was delivered to the estate. The
erstwhile dining hall had long been emptied of its baser contents, and
such accoutrements as the candleholders and the urn filled with the
flowers of black silk had taken their appointed places. The
sarcophagus proved every bit as striking as I had envisioned. The
minor deaths were cunningly realized, displaying their ill-favored
truths to dread-gripped mortals, and demons and damned alike beheld her
radiance. The tragedy was strong enough to claim a tear even from
Mephistopheles himself.
Expressing my profound thanks, and my fond
expectations of the next piece to be delivered, I paid the men and sent
them back to their shop before making a short trip to the undertaker,
to secure the aid of his two assistants. They returned home with
me, and bore her coffin from the parlor to her mortuary shrine, where
the stone lay open in anticipation. The men tied perfumed
handkerchieves before their faces, and bade me make similar
preparation, for the opening of the casket would unleash an unwholesome
foetor upon the air. I doused my kerchief with some of my late
wife’s perfume, a fragrance which she would never again wear in
any event, and so fortified, I watched as they removed the lid.
An unpleasant smell did indeed assail us, but it seemed to me that they
had exaggerated the claim; or at least, the prescribed measure had
accomplished its task.
I gazed with wonder upon Tisiphone’s
body. She had not suffered the level of corruption that I had
feared; there remained almost the similitude of life, belied only by
the azure cast to her lips and eyelids. I yearned to reach out
for her, but held back, knowing that such contact with the dead was
unwholesome for the living. These men, presumably, knew how to
touch her safely, and placed her shell into the waiting marble with an
alacrity I had not anticipated. I was actually a trifle
disappointed with the rapidity with which they pushed the heavy lid
into place, for the experience of seeing Tisiphone’s corpse was
far less unpleasant than I had anticipated, indeed I felt somehow
enchanted and longed to spend more time with her ere I must bid her
sweet face farewell for the rest of time.
Their task complete, the lads protested their need
to return at once; I fear that my entranced and wholly unexpected
demeanor had unnerved them. Knowing that I would need their
assistance again when my son’s sarcophagus was in place, I
accepted their protestations with aplomb and sent them on their way
with more handsome reward than they had expected.
Alone at last, I lingered in that shrine in an
effort to commune with the dead. My fingers caressed the cold
white marble, wishing that it were of more yielding nature, but with
the somber remembrance that the flesh would be equally cold and
white. I wept there for a time; in the absence of a proper
funeral, this interment served the same purpose, and the finality of
her state at last dawned upon me. I said many things in those
hours of diurnal darkness, most of which is lost to my memory, but I am
sure that I expressed the wistful desire that we might somehow be
reunited, here and now, despite the impossibility of such a
reunion. It was only with great reluctance that I quit the
chamber, pressed to that expedient by the weakness and yearning for
sleep that still characterized my every day.
Summer passed in favor of a gloomy autumn. I
saw not the wondrous display of color that so delighted Tisiphone in
the years of innocence before our boy’s demise -- and for which
display she often proclaimed the autumn her most esteemed season -- but
instead perceived everywhere in nature the portents of death and
decay. Oddly enough, it was only inside my house, from which I
seldom ventured, and more particularly, in the shrine wherein I guarded
Tisiphone’s earthly remains, that corruption was
forestalled. That bleak chamber, which I visited every day,
changed not, but remained whole and complete in itself, a small island
of permanence in a transitory world. In my imagination, I could
indulge the phantasy that sealed within her ornate grave of marble,
Tisiphone herself could cheat decay even if she could not escape death
-- indeed, precisely because she had embraced her decease, she might
elude the creeping grasp of corruption! -- and so, to my agonized mind,
she could remain whole and beautiful even if she could not be alive and
gay.
These were ever the pleasantest hours that I spent
in those dreary days, but I could not yet dedicate my every attention
to the contemplation of her whom I adored -- and adore still -- but
whom I lost. I attended yet to business, if with a heavy heart
and but half of my mind. Could I dispense with such mundane
matters entirely, I would have done so without a moment’s
hesitation.
The opportunity soon came for me to give life to
such wistful musings. The family’s business interests had
suffered somewhat from my preoccupation, enough to catch the attention
of competitors, but not so much as to devalue my holdings. I soon
received a visit from one such competitor, a certain Jonathan Lane of
Virginia, who much desired to expand his own interests, and saw a
golden opportunity in my loss. I felt no rancor for his effort to
profit in the face of my own tragedy; as I listened to his proposals, I
saw the opportunity to escape the doldrums of mere commerce and attend
to that contemplation that alone gave meaning to my twilit life.
If truth be known, his offer was decidedly to my advantage even in
gross financial terms; he had valued too highly a few of my assets and
connections, and moreover, he was prepared to pay even more handsomely
for the chance to secure the deal before any of our mutual competitors
took notice.
I
made a show of reluctance, but in the end, I accepted his offer without
any effort to wrench from him further consideration. As it was,
his generous recompense had filled anew my depleted resources, and
promised to make a reality of my dream to seal in perpetuity that
morose temple in which I, too, would one day lie alongside Tisiphone;
and in the company of our lost son, the family that will end in life
when I breathe my last will endure for all time in the shadows of
death. I bade him farewell and good fortune, likely leaving him
with the illusion that he had somehow gotten the better of me in my
disconsolate state, but fortified in my own mind with the certainty
that I had dispensed, under the best possible circumstances, with
matters that no longer contributed to mental and moral well-being; and
in dispensing with them, I secured my material well-being as surely as
I could have done by clinging to them.
Having attended with finality to my business
affairs, I was free to dedicate more time to my melancholy vigils in
the company of the late Tisiphone. In those days, I kept aloof
from living company, and but rarely required the purchase of
necessities, and so these visits came ever more to dominate my
experience of the day. I will admit that I slept more than I was
wont in that now-distant age before my wife’s death; ten hours
now became a norm, where previously I had considered myself lazy when I
had indulged in a full seven hours! Still, the waning of the sun
meant that even with the unnatural abundance of my soporific regimen,
dusk had fallen before I retired. It was not so during the
summer, and now I learned that the onset of nightfall had a curiously
relaxing effect upon me. I felt as if her hold upon the house and
all of its contents, myself included, were somehow stronger during the
hours of darkness. With the benefit of hindsight, such a
conclusion struck me as shockingly elementary, given that she was
necessarily to be counted amongst the Fallen, but it had not occurred
to me until I had opportunity to experience night in our house.
During those early hours of night, ere I clambered into my bed with the
hope of experiencing in dream what was denied to me in life, Tisiphone
seemed nearer my mind even than during the day, and any unexpected
sound or sight seemed to herald her presence. The creak of a
board, surely one of those sounds that fill any ancient home, was to me
the proclamation of her step in my direction. The raising of the
hackles on my neck, itself born of a momentary sensation that she must
be present, seemed the response to her breath upon me as she inclined
herself toward me. My heart soared at such moments, and once, it
poured out through my mouth an entreaty snatched from the works of
Goethe: “Incline, incline, you incomparable, you radiant being,
your gracious countenance to my happiness!” But I stood,
and looked behind me, and all happiness fled with the realization that
her countenance was nowhere to be found, but in that obvious place
wherein I had not the heart to look.
Still, the frisson of her presence took hold upon me often in the early
hours of evening. Sometimes, I would be struck with the
impression of movement at the corner of my eye, and if I were but quick
enough to react, I thought that I might behold her in my presence, and
it mattered not if it were in spirit only or in the flesh. The
thought gradually took form that if I had the courage to visit her
shrine during her hours, I might find her there, wakeful and
welcoming. I would linger upon this thought when it struck me,
but I did not put it into action. We shared this house, I knew,
but the barrier between life and death was such that we could not share
it fully at the same time. I might hold my somber vigil during
the hours of the sun, but while the sun lay cool in its grave and I did
not, I could not continue the vigil into the night, for that was her
time. I cannot explain it more clearly than that; my
unwillingness to attempt such a visit may have been born in equal
measure of my philosophical considerations and of a fear to see what
might be waiting.
What I feared, I cannot clearly say, either. Did I fear to see
her there, her mouldering flesh beckoning me to an unholy
reunion? Did I fear, instead, that I would not see her there, and
prove to my imaginative soul once and for all that my perceptions were
merest phantasy? However it may have been, I told myself that I
would leave her in peace in her time until I was ready to face whatever
truth may lie in that chamber.
Perhaps,
in the end, it was a kind of game that the deepest recesses of my mind
played with my wakeful self, to keep me going throughout that dark
autumn. The time did pass, and with the early chill of November
came word that my son’s sarcophagus had been completed.
Eagerly did I take delivery of that article, and at once I hastened to
the undertaker to obtain his aid in the recovery of my son’s
remains from Father Simmons’ churchyard.
I was sorry to see that one of the lads who had assisted me with
Tisiphone’s body, so strapping a youth at the time, had withered
to a shadow of his earlier self. I suspected some grave illness
had taken hold of him, for the pallor of his face and the deathly cast
that ringed his eyes. His burliness had gone, too, withered into
a slackness of flesh that threatened equally to waste away into
skeletal weakness or to grow into corpulence. My sense of decorum
kept me from saying a word, but my glance alone must have enjoyed a
certain eloquence, for the lad explained that he was actually improving
steadily after his bout with the grippe, and he was fully capable of
assisting me with so delicate a matter as the disposition of my
son’s diminutive body. So reassured, I journeyed with them
to the churchyard, heeding the advice of my weaker companion to keep
some distance from him and from all others in the town; for the illness
that so robbed him of his vitality was making its way at random through
the population.
Due
in all likelihood to my newfound antipathy toward Father Simmons, I
felt a curious discomfort in the churchyard. I stood, in fact,
upon the ground that had been meant for Tisiphone and myself, land for
which, truth to tell, I had paid some years before, and yet I felt an
unwelcome interloper. Cautiously my gaze passed every so often to
the doors and windows of the church, for fear, I suppose, that the
priest might impose upon me his undesired company. Still, that
could not have explained my feelings fully; several times, I crept
aside to avoid standing in the shadow of the steeple.
The young man had been true to his word when he said he was recovering;
he dug with an ardor, if not with the strength, equal to his healthy
companion. It could hardly have been more than half an hour
before the tiny casket was unearthed. I had paid well for the
best coffin possible, and it remained intact, but the for ugly scratch
across its surface where the spade had raked it. My heart broke
to think that its human cargo had not withstood the passage of time so
handily.
After two years beneath the mould, my son could not
have been more than a collection of sadly delicate bones. I knew
this to be fact, and that the proof of it would come all too soon; but
for the moment, I chased the thought from my head, hoping for a half
hour of innocence before I must face the truth. While I gazed
down at that somber little coffin, my companions filled the shaft again
with the displaced earth. That task completed, each took one end
of the diminutive box -- more to maintain the dignity that it
represented than to support a weight that either could have borne with
ease -- and followed me to my estate.
At last, in that shrine to the sorrow and death that so completely
ruled my family, came the moment I had dreaded. The
undertaker’s helpers slid open the marble sarcophagus, and then
wrenched the lid off the delicate casket. My breath caught in my
throat as I beheld the pitiable collection of bones, dispersed and
again commingled by the jarring of the coffin in its journey
hence. My eyes growing bleary under the influence of mourning
dew, I watched as the lads carefully gathered up each piece and placed
it in the sarcophagus, taking care to grant it a reasonable facsimile
of its proper place. Wiping away the obstructing drops, I gazed
one last time on the skeletal approximation of a boy I had loved
dearly, before the marble was slid over it. When next I saw it
open, my son would be alive and whole and vibrant in the world’s
new dawn.
In the meantime, the long night continued for him, as it did for
me. I ached to think of the countless hours that must pass before
I could join him, let alone the unknowable expanse that would stretch
before us until we could all stand together in the flesh. I would
happily join them in that chamber to await that day, but I knew I must
endure a little while longer the blandishments of mundane
existence. If nothing else, I must hold on until my own
sarcophagus were ready to join them; and as the winter stood poised
upon the horizon, it seemed likely that spring must come before I might
take delivery of the final article in my macabre tableau.
Steadying myself for that delay, I turned my attention to more
immediate concerns. I thanked the lads for their help, pledging
that when next I needed them, I would not be able to thank them
properly. Again I paid them more generously than necessary, and
sent them on their way. Alone at last, I thought anew of the
illness of which the sickly lad had spoken, and wondered what manner of
plague was visiting itself upon our town. I cared but little, and
would gladly surrender my life when it was claimed, but meant to see my
own funerary arrangements in place before I experienced them; and so I
hoped, if that word applies here, to endure the winter before making my
quietus.
I sat for an hour in their company, wedged between
my wife and our son, pouring out my heart with words intended only for
them. At last my sense of time returned to me, and bidding them
good night, I hastened from their presence, knowing that the hour of
Tisiphone’s dominion was approaching.
Although I doubted that I might ever again account
myself happy, I felt a certain contentment in that moment. My
family had been reunited in my household, and I could console myself
with their unceasing proximity until the day came that I might join
them fully. With this morose satisfaction began the long winter.
November passed into December with bitter cold and
periodic gentle snows, but we had escaped any serious storms until the
middle of the month. Scarcely more than a week before the
Christmas holiday brought half-hearted words of cheer to the jaded lips
of those who hoped that protestations of happiness might simulate its
actual presence, a powerful storm came down from the north, blanketing
the southern reaches of our state with nearly two feet of snow.
On the day that the storm came, this crystalline
deluge was already well underway as I prepared myself for bed.
Safely ensconced in my home, and having no need to leave for days, I
looked upon the exaggerated accumulation of snow with mild
satisfaction, and thought no more of it as I clambered into bed.
I had more important things to contemplate, as my
sleeping soul decided. As I had so often done in the past, I
dreamt of Tisiphone, living, here in our mutual home. She walked
into my bedroom, clad in the very same dusky-hued vestments in which I
had buried her, and fairly glided to my side. She bent down to
look me closely in the face, and at once I was awash in the pure blue
depths of her eyes. My heart bounded at her touch, cold though it
was, and I reached out to meet her embrace. Often had I dreamt of
her presence in the darkened corners of my sleeping house, but for the
first time, I beheld her lustrous beauty, I clasped that yielding
flesh, and experienced her company for the first time in months.
I drank deeply of this cup of comfort, and slept more peacefully than I
had since her decease.
Bitter, then was my disillusionment when I awakened,
and saw that she was not there beside me. I lay there perhaps an
hour before bestirring myself for the day. I know not why I
cared, or why I maintained my daily regimen when I knew without looking
that I would be trapped in the house for a day or two, but I performed
my ablutions in traditional manner. Whilst shaving, I looked down
into the basin and found several small crimson drops afloat in the
water. Moving my mirror to and fro, I searched my face for any
sign of injury, and discovered that I had cut myself with the razor on
the side of my neck! I chided myself for my carelessness. I
resolved to allow my beard to grow out, for the winter at least.
In the meantime, I put plasters upon the cut, and then covered them
with a high collar and cravat.
I had managed these efforts with the manner of an
automaton, but having accomplished them, I found myself so exhausted
that I needed betake myself, fully clad, to bed, and lay awash in a
stupor filled with the strangest dreams. During my more lucid
moments, I concluded that I must have contracted some wintry sickness,
and so I accepted the need to remain abed.
Three days passed before I felt ready to rise and
undertake any activity. The snow had receded to a point that
would permit me passage into town, and by this time I was ready for a
diversion. In this, my journey proved a disappointment, for the
town seemed in the grip of powerful drowsiness, aching for a return to
sleep. I found my attorney in his office, and passed some time
with him discussing matters of import to the local denizens. The
grippe was clearly taking its toll on my fellow creatures, leaving
little work accomplished. Many people remained abed for days at a
time. Even among those who had not been stricken with this
illness, many wished to quit our town for Baltimore or some other major
city. Indeed, my factor indicated, there were many who sought to
sell their property, and at highly advantageous prices, no less.
After a moment’s consideration, I deemed the notion valuable for
my long-term plans, and empowered him to purchase any property where
the offer met given criteria.
Returning home, I found that I inadvertently
startled several townspeople as they peered cautiously from their
homes. Two young boys, playing around the corner of a building,
ran in fright at what could only have been my shadow. I puzzled
at this skittishness, and then decided to share it in jest with the
shade of my wife. Surely, were she alive and her heart untouched
by shadow, she would have laughed most heartily at such foibles!
Though I jibed, I could muster no mirth to animate
my words. I passed a gloomy Christmas in the company of the dead,
and welcomed a new year with the firm aspiration never to see it
end. The best hours of the day were spent in the memorial shrine,
but it was at night that I felt more alive. Tisiphone seemed more
alive then, and so by extension did I. It was always the little
things that kept that faith alive, merest tokens that seem to evaporate
even when I contemplate putting them to paper.
Once, near the middle of January, I had a little
more than such tokens to fortify my belief. I had been sitting in
my study, perusing one of my volumes in a vain attempt to occupy time,
when I thought I heard a strange sound in the parlor. I hastened
to that room, only to find nothing out of place. I chided myself
for foolishness, and almost left the room, when the walls were buffeted
by unusually strong gusts of wind. I approached the window, and
gazed out upon the grounds to see the state of the weather.
Those gusts proved an isolated occurrence; the snow
was not swirling about in the air, but in fact lay peacefully upon the
ground by the time I peered out. Nothing, in fact, seemed out of
place, but for the movement of a dark shape upon the grounds.
This form was gradually receding as I watched, but I was struck for a
moment by its humanlike aspect. It seemed, in fact, to be a
woman, her flowing black skirt billowing as she walked. I thought
of Tisiphone, herself buried in such ebon costume, and a cry died in my
throat.
I
scrambled to the door, and thrust it open, but by then, the figure had
disappeared into the night, if ever it had been there. I looked
upon the ground, and saw no fresh tracks, and decided that my
imagination had wrested dominance from my very senses. Tisiphone
was much on my mind, and when I saw movement, I ascribed it to her,
though it flew in the face of every argument of reason. Were I to
dare my makeshift crypt by night, and pull away the marble slab that
o’erlies my dearest wife, I would find her there, waiting
patiently for me. If I so dared, I would know at last that her
death was final, and the desiccation of her corpse would assure me that
her beauty held no greater permanence than her life. And then,
the magic of the evening would be stolen away, and night would be a
more empty space even than day. Chastened at heart, I left the
parlor and repaired at once to bed.
Upon rising the following morning, however, I found
myself unable to dispel the notion from my mind. It was
Tisiphone! I thought. She lives still! Be it ever in so
strange a manner as I could not fathom it, it was so. Should I
pull back the marble slab, I would find the sarcophagus
tenantless. She visits me at night, unseen, when it is her wont,
and leaves the premises at will. Torn between the despairing
doubts of the night before, and the soaring hopes that arose in my
breast with the sun, I steeled myself at last to confront my tumultuous
emotions. I would shine my lamp inside the tomb.
It
was a difficult task for me to undertake. In physical terms
alone, it was formidable; as smooth a stone as marble is, it is also
heavy, and for a man of gentlemanly breeding such as I, it was no mean
effort to push it aside sufficiently to look within. There was
also the psychic struggle, that climactic battle between the boundless
need to know and the fierce will to evade an unpleasant truth. In
the end, I mastered it all, and lamp in hand, I peered inside.
Crushing disappointment gripped my soul. Black
shadows parted to reveal the inky raiment that my dear wife wore into
her rest, and the polished white surface of marble gave way to the waxy
white surface of her face and hands, framed as they were by her jetty
hair and the black fabric of her dress. A faint but distinct
smell of death assaulted my nose. My dreams that she, like the
phoenix of Grecian lore, had somehow abandoned death and decay
altogether to rise in revitalized form, were ground into sand as if by
a fiendish mill powered by the flow of the river of time.
A
moment later, however, I realized how hastily I had given myself over
unto despair. There was, indeed, something wondrous at work
here. Dead she was, if my eyes deceived me not, but decay had
still not alighted upon her gentle brow. For half a year had her
body lain prostrate in the embrace of death, and still the corruption
of the grave had not worked its fell magic upon her. Her face,
her hands, were clean and whole as they were when I pulled her from her
bath, and her hair glistened like obsidian.
I stood entranced, knowing the singular nature of
what I was seeing. Had Hell, too, its Saints, those chosen few
endowed with miraculous workings beyond the grave? The incorrupt
state of Tisiphone’s body was, indeed, nothing short of a
miracle. Remained her soul, I wondered, tied still to a body that
the Earth could and would not reclaim, but free to speak in the common
sounds of night to those who would hear her, even upon occasion to
grant a fleeting vision of her presence?
Moved
powerfully by the wonder that had been worked within my house, I
reached out to clasp her right hand, which rested placidly above her
left at her breast, and found it cold but yielding, not stiff with
rictus. A joy unknown in three years swelled in my own breast,
and I raised that chill member to my cheek. I wept and trembled
as I knelt there at her side, enjoying a contact I had not known in my
waking life for months. It was as if my strongest dream had come,
if even partially, to life.
One thing more remained to raise my state to one of
utter astonishment. Sated at last with the meagre and yet
overwhelming comfort of her cold hand against my cheek, I wiped my eyes
and made to restore her arm to its proper place at her breast. As
I did so, I noticed that her wrist was as clean and whole as the rest
of her body. Surely, I thought, I must be mistaken. The
wound upon her right wrist was, after all, a superficial one; her
mortally wounded left hand had not the strength to work her fiendish
will upon the right. Alone, the wound at her right wrist could
not have killed her. It was the left that told the true story.
My eyes were wide as I raised her left hand to
examine her wrist. It too was intact, with not even a scar to
mark the passage of her life’s blood. I felt weak, and my
head swam, as if my own blood ran out to stain the bathwater, and I
simply allowed the feeling to wash over me. And then, robbed of
all capacity to think, I composed her body anew. I placed her
hands in their appointed places, clasped for a moment my own warm hand
to her smooth, cold cheek, and then with the superhuman effort of the
man deprived of all thought, pulled the slab back into its proper place.
I
left the shrine in a glow of astonishment that kept me going all
through the day. So much had been taken from me, that in return
some small blessing had been bestowed. That this grace must be of
an infernal nature, I did not doubt, but the wonder had still been
worked. I thought again of the weeping Lucifer in the marble
relief, and echoed Prince Hamlet in crediting my soul with the gift of
prophecy. I could think of nothing else that day, but replayed
the scene over and again in my mind, seeking out each detail for
eternal preservation in my memory. Even the foul smell that had
assailed my nostrils upon the opening of the sarcophagus returned to
mind, and I recognized it as the same smell I had detected when
Tisiphone was laid to rest in her marble domicile. It was
unpleasant, true, but it was far weaker than I had expected. It
was the weakness of the smell, and not the strength of her perfume,
that made the odor so much more bearable than the undertaker’s
apprentices had led me to believe. It was the smell of death,
yes, but not the overpowering stench of putrefaction!
My discovery had buoyed my spirits far more than I
might have expected. My thoughts dwelt ever more strongly on
Tisiphone than before, but at last the notion of her continuing
presence had claimed supremacy over my fears of her eternal
absence. Each day I betook myself to the shrine of my dead
family, knowing of the miracle that dwelt within the stone, and it
brought me some comfort, enough at least to keep me going until I
joined them forever. Several times I slid open the marble cover,
to gaze again upon the wondrous visage of my wife, to touch again the
skin that remained supple and dry. In this way I passed several
weeks, and as the month of February began to mature, I knew that I
would not need to wait too much longer. Soon the winter would
yield to spring, and in that vernal awakening, I would take delivery of
the third sarcophagus.
Ere
the second week of February had ended, I made another visit into town
to inquire after my affairs and procure a few supplies. I was
shocked to see that the languor which had earlier gripped the townsfolk
had seemed to intensify. The day was fairly warm, and I had
expected many to take advantage of winter’s loosening grasp to
see to any number of matters. I had not expected to find that the
only eyes that met my gaze as I walked could be found behind the panes
of their sturdy windows.
Fortunately, my attorney had remained healthy both
in body and in mind, and I found him in his appointed place.
Attending first to business, I found him in high spirits, indeed.
More plots had become available for purchase than he had expected, and
for far better prices. By the end of winter, he surmised, I
should be the foremost landowner in town, and when this winter’s
illnesses and other unpleasantness were forgotten, more people would
come to make their homes here; I would enjoy a most healthy return upon
my investment. I said nothing of my hope not to live so
long. Instead, I inquired after the unpleasantness of which he
had spoken.
There was a great fear in town that its people had
somehow been cursed, and that unholy forces had conspired to sap them
of their vitality. Until recently, this had been nothing more
than the subject of idle mutterings by those half-delirious under the
influence of the grippe. The voices of discontent were much
strengthened, however, when Father Simmons began to echo their
concerns, though he himself was never taken ill. In fact, he
tried to stir the people out of their lethargy, into a state of
vigilance against the unholy powers that he saw at work in their sorry
state. In point of fact, he accomplished little more than to
drive many from the town entirely, and to seal many more inside their
homes for as long as humanly possible. Father Simmons, my
attorney told me, had surely gone mad, God rest his soul.
He
answered my questioning glance with the intelligence that Father
Simmons had been found dead eight days previously. He had been
summoned in the night from his rooms alongside the church to bring aid
to an unusually unfortunate family, in which five members lay prostrate
under the baneful influence of the grippe. Dr. Cathcart had
hesitated to exaggerate the concerns that the priest’s death
aroused, and stressed that at night, and under such slippery conditions
as surely obtained in the event, Father Simmons’ death could have
been mere accident. The youngest son, however, who had ventured
into the night to bring aid in the first instance, swore that it was a
case of murder by a person unknown.
With
a smile and a knowing wink, I thanked my attorney, anxious to reinforce
his disbelief in the fancies of simpler folk. Unfortunately, I too
believed that dark forces exerted their influence in this town, and for
my part, I could not account them hostile. I must know more, I
thought, and to that end I paid a visit to Dr. Cathcart, to see what
the old gentleman believed in this matter.
He
saw me readily. He began with an inquiry after my health, both
physical and psychic, in these recent months; and in light of his
profession, I must concede that it was no idle question, but fully
germane. Still, I was uninterested in pursuing that matter, and
passed it off with the observation that I had been much better in my
time. The good doctor accepted my decision a trifle more readily
than I might have expected, but this permitted me to broach the subject
that had brought me thence: I understood that Father Simmons had died
recently, and under strange circumstances. I was greatly
interested in knowing more.
Dr. Cathcart had known me since my birth, and deemed
me a man of discretion; it should, therefore, arouse no consternation
that he would so readily relate to me the facts in this case. In
any event, the salient details were a matter of public record.
Father Simmons had left his rooms alongside the church that night in
order to grant succor to some troubled parishioners, but he never made
it to his destination. He had been accompanied by twelve-year-old
Lucas Cragswell, the youngest son of the family that sought his
aid. The excitable boy had run for help with the claim that the
priest was under assault by some ill-defined figure. When the lad
brought two strong men to the place where this attack had taken place,
they found only the good father, lying dead at the base of a large
tree. Two sets of footprints led toward that place, and only the
smaller of the two led away from it. The two men were therefore
skeptical of the claim, but Father Simmons was equally dead regardless
of the agency involved, and it was incumbent upon them to bring his
body to the doctor, and make report in the morning to the chief
constable of the town.
The
doctor assured me that he examined the body as thoroughly as he might,
given that there was a claim of violence, however improbable it might
seem. The priest had seemed in good condition, but for three
factors that had exerted some influence in his death. The first
and most important fact was that his neck was broken, apparently the
result of a powerful impact with some sturdy object, and this was most
evidently the cause of death. A blunt weapon of some kind could
certainly have dealt him that blow, if perchance a very strong man were
perched in a tree above him when he passed below; at least, this
hypothetical assailant could not have been standing on the ground, for
he would have left behind his footprints in the snow! The more
reasonable conclusion, however, was that the goodly priest had simply
slipped upon ice or snow and collided in a most unfortunate manner with
the tree beneath which his body had been found. The conclusion
was also supported by the second factor, namely, a small injury to the
side of the neck, which injury surely marked the point of impact.
It was an ugly wound, in which the abrasion of the tree’s bark
was compounded by the passage of several pieces of broken bone, but it
was clearly secondary to the breaking of the neck, without which it
could not have claimed his life. The third observation was that
Father Simmons could not have been in such good health when he embarked
upon that journey as all had assumed. Even a cursory look at his
skin revealed the evidence of anaemia, which would have left him
sufficiently weak as to facilitate the kind of catastrophic fall that
killed him. His first inclination was to suppose some kind of
serious blood loss, but the men who had recovered the body had assured
him that there was no great profusion of blood in evidence at the place
of death, and so he had to conclude that the priest was seriously ill
at the time. Such, at least, was Dr. Cathcart’s
professional opinion; he had no intention to call young Master
Cragswell a liar, but boys of that age are often prone to excitable
imaginations, and the circumstances were exceptional by all accounts.
Making an effort to keep my tone conversational, I
asked him if he knew anything of the nature of the trouble the
Cragswells had experienced, leading them to seek clerical
support. He replied that like several other large families in
town, the grippe had hit them hard. No fewer than five family
members had been prostrated by the illness at one time or another
during the course of the winter, and some had suffered relapses after
initial recovery. Medically speaking, it was all perfectly
predictable; the more people who dwell under the same roof, the greater
the impact of any disease stalking the vicinity. As the immediate
victims of the mysterious illness, however, they could not see it with
the requisite scientific detachment. Instead, they chose to view
it with the kind of fatuous superstition that, unfortunately, Father
Simmons in his own undiagnosed illness was beginning to support.
The Cragswells patently believed that Father Simmons’ visit might
somehow permit them to ward off whatever miasma had vexed them.
He may as well have tried to ward off the snow.
At this point, I asked him what he knew of this
grippe; clearly, it was a more powerful illness than usual. Here
the doctor hesitated; he could not really say that it was more
powerful, and indeed, in some respects it was noticeably weaker.
Normally, a victim suffered significant effects for ten to fourteen
days; here, recovery was usually effected in four. The onset of
the illness was more rapid and generally more potent than normal, but
nothing that demanded the immediate care of a physician. Indeed,
Dr. Cathcart had been consulted on only a few cases, and they usually a
day or two after onset. His difficulties had been compounded by
the fact that the victim’s weakness made him more susceptible to
conventional illnesses, and this winter has been generally more sickly
than usual. What was most troubling about this grippe, however,
was its aptitude for relapse, something that generally does not
occur. Psychically speaking, it was a most debilitating fact, for
it instilled in its less fortunate victims a sense of being persecuted
somehow, a sense that made fertile ground for the priest’s
assertion that an unholy force were afflicting the community.
I thanked him for his time, and after leaving his
office, I turned toward the Cragswell abode. It seemed a small
home for such a large household, containing as it did eight
members. Knowing, too, that this house had been singularly
unhealthy, I hesitated to bother its inhabitants. Under the best
of circumstances, I should be an unwelcome interloper. My hope,
however, was to speak with Lucas, the youngest child and thus far one
of that minority who had remained untouched by the illness. If I
were fortunate, I might find him outside, performing some chore, such
as collecting water from the stream. Were that the case, I might
find him all too willing to pause for a few minutes to answer my
inquiries.
My instincts proved justified; following the crack
of an axe against wood, I found him collecting firewood on the far side
of his house. I begged his indulgence, which he granted, and I
asked him about the night that Father Simmons died. There was no
pretense or condescension in my question about what he had seen when
the priest was attacked; for, despite the considered opinion of my
medical friend, I had cause to believe in the lad’s story, or in
its plausibility at any rate. My sincerity blended with the
boy’s natural gregariousness and the tensions of a frightful
winter to inspire most thorough answers to my queries.
Lucas was leading Father Simmons toward his house;
thus, his first indication of trouble was the sound of his companion
stumbling. Lucas turned to find his view of the priest obstructed
by a dark figure. It had been a dark night, with a generous
snowfall and prodigious gusts of wind; moreover, this figure had had
her back to him, but he was confident in having identified it as a
woman dressed entirely in black, with long, jetty tresses that seemed
to merge with her raiment. The only exception to that ebon
uniformity was effected by her hands, which for cadaverous waxiness
seemed almost to blend into the snow.
Father Simmons had been knocked half prostrate by
his fall, which may have been natural or may have been occasioned by
the woman. Ere he had found the strength to rise again, however,
the woman grasped his head with her left hand, and his shoulder in her
right, and bent closely over his face. It was then that Lucas ran
for help, knowing that he could do nothing against her, and when he
returned with two stout-hearted companions, it was too late save the
priest. Lucas had enjoyed precious little hope of assisting the
man, in any event; he had intended rather to bring the man’s
corpse into shelter, and to see his story told. Having seen how
easily the clergyman had fallen, Lucas no longer had any hope of
escaping from the Woman’s baleful influence.
I asked him what he knew of this Woman; for surely
he had enjoyed neither light nor time enough to have forged such a
clear impression of her appearance. This, it so emerged, was not
a problem with which he had needed contend. Twice before he had
seen her, hastening from his house, and while he had never had occasion
to see her face clearly, he had noted the same pallor upon her face and
neck. Indeed, given any modicum of illumination, her exposed skin
would seem almost luminous set against the inky backdrop of her
attire. Were she not so unnatural in her demeanor as to inspire
in him an instinctive terror, he would have ventured to accord her a
surpassing beauty.
I found it most fortunate that young Master
Cragswell had never before met my wife, nor had either of us
encountered him, for I was now certain that it was none other than
Tisiphone whom he described; and could he but surmise that I was his
fearsome apparition’s lawful husband, he would have turned me
away with at least a curse, and perhaps, with a swing of that
axe. And though he was young, I could not doubt that he would
have proven most capable with the implement. I could only hope
that neither he, nor any other of the more credulous townsfolk, would
yet manage to establish a link between my wife and their suffering, for
a spontaneous convocation of such believers outside my abode would
prove beyond my ability to repel. I still cared little for my own
life, but the prospect that I had regained Tisiphone’s presence
despite her decease gave me something that I might, but would not, lose.
This
being so, I felt I must know how much he knew, or suspected, so I
pressed him on the nature of the Woman and her connection with the
grippe that so discomfited the town. Lucas felt these questions
well beyond his capacity for understanding, but told me as much as he
did know. The grippe had begun slowly in the early autumn, but
had not struck the Cragswell house until after winter had set in.
He remembered clearly that first night, when his grandfather fell
victim to its grasp. It was a bitterly cold night, with a fierce
wind that blew about the barest dusting of snow. The family was
seated around the warmth of its fireplace for a few stories before
retiring for the night, when a gentle rapping sounded at the
door. At first, none seemed to credit it, but took it instead for
the actions of the wind. When the knocking persisted, however,
his father rose from his seat and approached the door, asking who
begged entrance at such an hour.
It
was a woman’s voice that answered, though the content of her
response was lost to the wind. Daniel Cragswell was a kindly man,
however, despite his rough exterior, and would not consign a woman to
the blandishments of such a night without cause. And so, though
muttering some imprecation as he did the deed, he unbolted the door and
opened it, offering the woman a place by the fire as she told her tale.
Great was his astonishment when he found no one
there; it was only the wind that answered his invitation, and only a
gust of powder-laden breeze made entrance in the home. Shivering,
he shut the door as quickly as he might, and hastened over to the fire
to warm himself. Everyone thought that the sounds outside had
been a trick of the wind, and expected no further consequence of that
action.
Nor did they associate the circumstance with the
gentle knocking of the night before when, that morning, they found the
grandfather still sitting before the cold ashes of yesternight’s
fire. Chilled to the bone, he sat shivering under his blanket,
which he kept tightly wrapped about his upper body. That he was
ill was readily apparent -- it was not cold enough in the room to
account for his state -- and his mind was trapped in a state of
delirium. Two of Lucas’ brothers carried the grandfather to
his bed, where he was unable to do more than mutter cryptically for
hours. The only words of which a listener might make any sense
seemed to be “The ice -- the ice!”
This had been the first attack of the grippe in the
Cragswell household, but not the last. The grandfather,
fortunately, had recovered and never suffered a relapse, but
Lucas’ father and all three brothers had subsequently suffered
attacks; moreover, Daniel Cragswell and two of his sons had suffered it
more than once. None remembered much from his period of delirium,
save for an impression of a visitation by some unearthly being, of
which the most potent recollection seemed to be the power of its
eyes. This, then, was the most likely identification of the
grandfather’s delirious mutterings, a conclusion with which Lucas
wholeheartedly concurred.
Lucas
also proved more discerning than I might have expected. He had
noted, when his grandfather was found insensate in the sitting room,
that a faint, unwholesome odor seemed to linger in that chamber.
At the time, he had ascribed it only to the old man, but on each
occasion that a family member fell under the influence of the grippe,
that same smell hung elusively in the room. On two occasions, he
had been wakeful for some reason, and espied the darkly-clad woman on
her way out of the house, noting that the scent was stronger in her
presence. Here his descriptive capacity failed him, but I
inferred easily enough that he meant to suggest that she partook
somehow of the stench of death, albeit gently. Here I recalled
the diminished odor that rose from the opened sarcophagus of Tisiphone,
and my heart raced.
I thanked the lad warmly, and submitted that I too
had had my own brush with this illness, whatever its true nature may
be. I lied when I said that I had not personally seen the
authoress of woe that he had described, and again when I suggested that
the advent of spring should free the town of her influence, but I did
not wish that someone older and more capable than Lucas should heed his
observations.
My heart thrilled as I journeyed home. Could
it be, I wondered, that I might again see Tisiphone alive, if only
after a fashion? Could this be the explanation for the miracle of
her incorrupt state? I resolved to test my theory that very
night. I would feign sleep, and then, in the very depths of
night, I would enter my makeshift crypt, and see with my own eyes
whether my wife’s sarcophagus be tenanted or not.
The first part was the most easily
accomplished. The excitement that coursed through my veins would
have precluded sleep, even had I sought its embrace. It was not
so simple a matter to maintain, or even to achieve, the semblance of
somnolence. For hours I struggled to preserve my outer
quiescence, even though my inner world was full of tumult. Nor
was it any simple matter to mark the passage of time. It remained
to me only to trust my instincts when the time was right to rise.
Can anyone imagine the thrill that coursed through
my veins when, at some unheralded hour, the handle of my bedchamber
door gently creaked down, and by slow progress of inches that door
eased towards me? It cost me every effort of will to keep my eyes
shut, and to effect the stately cadence of nocturnal breath. To
think that, had I opened my eyes, I would have beheld my dearest wife,
standing in my doorway in every appearance of natural life! Soon,
I swore to myself, that joy would fall to me, but tonight would be
dangerously premature.
For many minutes -- or was it merely the briefest
moment in time? -- there was silence at my door, and then by slow
degrees the aperture was sealed. The last I heard was the
mechanical click of the handle swinging back into its horizontal norm,
and then all was silence.
I redoubled my efforts to muster the full force of
my patience. Tisiphone was still in our home, for a short while
at least, before she left her sanctuary for the world beyond. I
understood fully; in the winter, darkness fell too early, and ordinary
mortals slept not for several hours. Only when most people were
abed could she wander in safety. I knew not precisely what could
harm her, but I understood instinctively that the fairest things in all
the world are also the most vulnerable. Manna from heaven
crumbled in the very effort to preserve it, and even mighty Achilles in
all his strength and puissance was disastrously unguarded about his
heel; so too must the Chosen Ones of Hell take care to protect their
weaknesses. Who knows what Father Simmons might have
accomplished, had he determined the truth before succumbing to
it? Regarding these contemplations in numerous forms, I whiled
away the time before I felt it safe to rise.
I struck a match and ignited the tapers in a small
candelabrum at the side of my bed, and light in hand, I made my way to
the heart of my house, that inner sanctum wherein I would one day rest
with my wife and my son. I held the candles aloft as I took stock
of the scene. My first impression was one of disappointment when
I saw the marble slab still in place; had I been dreaming, I wondered,
when I fancied the opening of my door? Bitter indeed would be my
sorrow if that should prove the case. I steadied myself, however,
to explore further. Perhaps, I thought, Tisiphone had put the
stone back in place before leaving, should I rise during the night, and
finding myself wakeful, wander into this temple of the dead? I
considered it even possible that she had no need of removing the slab
to leave her abode. Regardless of the true circumstance, only one
course would sate my burning curiosity: I must open the sarcophagus.
Placing the candelabrum on the plinth of the statue
of the disconsolate demon, the shrine was bathed in a sinister
interplay of shadow and light. The dancing of the tiny flames
made the room seem somehow alive, a most distressing impression, given
the fact that it was dedicated to the dead. Posting myself at the
head of her sarcophagus, I placed both hands upon the lid, and slowly
but forcefully I pushed.
The light, of course, was now situated below the
aperture, and nothing but darkness was visible therein. The smell
of death insinuated itself in my nostrils, but as delicately as ever,
and I could not determine what that aroma should signify.
Bolstering my nerves, I grasped the candelabrum in my left hand, and
again held it aloft.
The tenement of the dead was empty.
My hand trembled, causing the lights that danced
about the room to flutter with greater ferocity. My hackles rose
as my arm descended, extending golden tendrils into every corner of the
sarcophagus. Its tenant was clearly absent. My heart sang
with the revelation -- Tisiphone walked again!
I replaced the candelabrum upon the plinth, and
pulled the slab back into its proper place. Then I hastened to my
room in the hope of achieving a sleep that now seemed more remote than
ever. I had been tempted, I admit, to remain in the crypt, ready
to welcome Tisiphone when she arrived from her journey. What I
did not know, however, was precisely how she should respond to my
presence. I was transfixed with the certainty that my life would
change irrevocably when next we met. It were best, I was sure,
that I postponed our much-desired reunion until my own sarcophagus had
been delivered, and I was ready to take my place at her side.
It is now spring, and I took delivery of that
article this morning. I now hurry to complete this document
before nightfall. Should things go ill for me -- for us -- these
words will provide the only possible account of what has transpired and
why.
When
I finish these final words, I will place the papers in the drawer of my
desk. Picking up the candelabrum at my side, I will then repair
to the very soul of my house, the crypt that was once a dining room --
now Tisiphone’s bedchamber, and soon to be mine as well.
There I will await the failing of the sun, and when Tisiphone rises
from her breathless sleep, I shall fall to my knees, and exclaim to
her, after Goethe’s eloquent words,
“Your once beloved, no longer clouded, returns!”
Der früh Geliebte,
Nicht mehr Getrübte,
Er kommt zurück.
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